Just a job???

So I've been back to work now for two weeks and I was placed in a role that I'm not entirely found about.  Thank God it's only a temporary assignment until Christmas.  I'm working as a file clerk, which is oh so much fun! (can you sense my sarcasm here?).  To me this is a huge step down from being an Administrative Assistant and Occupational Health and Safety Coordinator, so I ask the question:

Have you ever just taken any job you could get because it was better then nothing at all?

As much as the credit card companies out there will tell you the recession is over, I beg to differ, given the lack of job prospects out there.  I feel blessed in a way to have something that pays the bills, but my body for one isn't.  My muscles hurt from filing all day, every day.......  But enough of my complaining.

Its my belief that God has a plan for us, whether we like it or not, and that each move we make is a move in the right direction (providing it's not illegal obviously).  So the way I see it is that, it's not just a job, it's a very calculated move that God has placed me in to get me to the next move...then the next.  Maybe I won't be making the "big bucks" in a few weeks, or months, doing what my soul was supposed to do, but I believe that it serves a purpose for the time being and something so much better is in the works for me.

I once heard a quote, and I think it was Joyce Meyer, who said that just because you see no results doesn't mean that your not growing.  God is working his magic behind the scenes to bring your souls purpose to light. So I will thank him ever day, despite the pain (growth is all about pain by the way!) and I will happily file paperwork and know that this too shall pass and something greater is right around the corner!

Where on earth have I been?

I have to apologize for not keeping up with my blog over the last few months. To be honest, I wanted to write something a few weeks ago, but forgot my log in info!

Anyway, enough of my excuses. So where have I been for the last three months? Here's the simplest explanation: I was working in a contract and it ended in August. So I've been unemployed.

When that happened I was actually really excited to try something different and step outside the box. I had such grand plans of spending "me time", really getting intouch with my soul purpose and changing my life to be more fluid with what God had planned for me. I had a list of things to do, and thought the sky was the limit!

It stated with the idea that maybe I was destined to teach Yoga.  For the first 30 days I went to a local gym under a trial membership. I spent Mon-Fri doing Yoga and Centergy. It was fun to say the least and also cathartic because I realized how I had ignored my physical limitations for years, and probably pushed my body past what it physically wanted to do day after day. I met a really amazing Yoga instructor who specializes in Restorative Yoga. I'd never done Yoga so slow before in my life, and having to perform one small position for minutes at a time was really challenging. It also forced me to slow down and really pay attention to my breathing and body. I recommend it for anyone who feels life is getting too hectic and they don't feel in touch with the present moment.

I looked into becomming certified, but sadly most programs are offered during weekends, and I have no way of attending with a 5 year old, nor do I have the finances right now! So at least that dream will have to wait for awhile.

When the membership ended I tried to continue an at-home routine. Sadly it isn't every day. In fact it has diminished to maybe twice a week if that. Lack of finances and motivation has really influenced my soul search.

I've taken a few walks, even walking my son to school 3 km away, but now that the weather has grown colder I'm finding many more excuses to stay inside or drive. So much for the physical activity I had in mind!

I've read a bit thanks to the local library. Some Deepak Chopra, Oprah, books on Reiki, Meditation and many books on Yoga have been my daytime companion as of late. I also caught up on some television that didn't include cartoons.

I've volunteered my time to a cause I feel strongly about and have had some time to see friends and family for lunch.

So although my "sky is the limit" attitude has diminished greatly and I feel I still haven't really found my souls purpose (other then being a mom), I think some of the lessons I have learned along the way have been extremely valuable. Here's a few:

1. You spend more than you think you do...(aka, that budget isn't accurate!).

2. The economy right now is crap and many people are without work, so don't feel so bad.

3. You need Yoga in your life, at least twice a week.

4. Friendships are extremely important to you, support them more often. Those that put in an effort for you are worth it. Forget the rest.

5. Just because things aren’t the way you wish they were, doesn't mean you can't enjoy where you currently are.

6. Make time for the important things (like playing hide and seek with your son). The dishes can wait.

7. Don't panic. God has a plan, even though you don't see it yet, he's working on it behind the scenes.

Well I hope that helps to sum up the last 74 days. It's gone by quickly for me and who knows what I'll do next, but I promise to keep up my blog. I enjoy the writing and can feel the creative juices flowing again. Thanks to those that have supported it!

Namaste.